Saturday, August 31, 2019

Fresh Out of F*cks This Season. LITERALLY. #BB21


It's hard for me to believe that this season is nearing the end, because in a sense I don't feel like it ever really got off the ground.  It's been such a strange season for me.  Last season was one of the best for me because I was interested in the game and also the house guests up until the very end of the season.

But this year?  Not so much.

I'm having a lot of trouble motivating myself to post, or even to watch the live feeds.  It's a burden, to be honest.  Is it just me?  I appreciate all of the regular readers here who have loyally read all of my ramblings for so many years and apologize for the disruption in service.  I really thought that I would be stuck to the computer for much longer periods of time due to the renovation projects in my house, but that hasn't been the case at all.

And as I try to focus on typing, a major hurricane is threatening the East Coast and will ruin lots of lives in Florida, Georgia and/or the Carolinas, a gunman shot up a high school football stadium in Texas last night, and three gunmen in two cars are driving around Texas shooting motorists and have yet to be apprehended.  (UPDATE:  One of the killers has been shot, apparently.)

So it's all a mess everywhere. And Nick was voted out last Thursday and is gone from the game.  This is Nick in his bed in the hours leading up to the last live show, talking to Nicole who took his departure very hard later in the evening.  She made several attempts to keep him in the game, but in the end it wasn't enough.


Before the live show everyone milled around the kitchen, all aware that Christie would survive another live show on the block but being respectful of the situation for Nick's sake.  Nick was very disappointed in Tommy for telling Nick that he planned to vote in Christie's favor, because he had already promised her he would.

That is going to hurt Tommy's chance to win the game if he makes it to the Finale, because he has offended Nick greatly and Nick will surely point out to Jack and Analyse in the Jury that Tommy voted for them to leave, too.


And I'm sure you know that Jackson, yes JACKSON won the HoH, which was indeed The Wall.  Tommy was the last person up there with him and although I watched live, I don't remember how the end came, but Tommy had been making noises up there like he wanted to make a deal with Jackson.

So now the last three HoHs have been Jackson, Holly, and now Jackson again.  I'm going to make some ugly remarks now, so if you are the sensitive type or some sort of Holly fan, go ahead and hit your scroll button.

If I have to see Holly pull her legs up to straddle Jackson during a hug one more time, I really might vomit.  I CAN'T STAND to listen to Holly talk.  She sounds like she has her jaw wired shut and her whole Frontier Land persona makes me cringe so hard.


WHAT IN THE HELL IS HOLLY'S GOAL?  Is she trying to be an actress?  A model?  The Bachelorette?  What is she trying to prove wearing this outfit?

When Holly was HoH the first time, I told you about a conversation she had with Kathryn about how she was so glad to finally be getting some genuine game-related questions in her DR sessions instead of just questions about "some dude".  Well, now she's complaining about the same thing, after the DR asked her questions about whether she thought Jackson's mother would like her or not.

Holly knows that Jackson is getting "cute" segments on the CBS episodes and that she is seen as a supporting role to his leading actor.  What did she expect, though?  Spending HOURS each day on her makeup and strutting around in her Forever 21 Final Clearance clothing?   The CBS episodes always show her fussing with her hair, because that's what Holly always does, try to arrange her hair to look a certain way on camera.

Get over yourself Holly.  You LITERALLY made your bed with "Mickey" (***cringe***) so now you LITERALLY need to live in it.  If you're smart, you will make the move to evict him because he may beat you in the end so you'll have to take the backseat (LITERALLY, probably) to him once again.

(Have you noticed that the CBS show, along with many others, is chock full of LITERALLY LITERALLY LITERALLY now that people hear other people saying it so they start saying it too and now that word is like a runaway train barreling down the tracks, feeling more like ACTUALLY now. Sorry, Webster.)


The live feeds are full of scenes like this one.  And the same old problem from weeks ago has resurfaced, because now Holly is upset again about the live feeds watching her have sex with Jackson.  And she's upset that Jackson has mentioned taking showers with Holly to the other house guests.

Um....she's walking around straddling and hanging all over Jackson most of the time we see her on the feeds, so does she expect us to believe that is not happening?


I would just like to point out that during the two seasons they played together, Jeff and Jordan barely as much as KISSED in the Big Brother house, because Jordan had strict rules about that and made promises about it to her family before BB11.  She and Jeff were a semi-casual showmance back then, but during BB13 when they had already been dating for quite a while Jordan refused to even get under the same blanket with Jeff when they shared a bed.  She wanted to make it clear that they were a couple who would not be sharing intimate moments on TV.

So it's possible, people. And look what they ended up with. EVERYTHING. These two have EVERYTHING together.

Yes, this is Jessica looking disgusted by the mess greeting her in the kitchen.  This was the morning after the live show, I think, so I guess anyone but Jessica or Nick is responsible for leaving so many dirty dishes laying around.


Jessica tackled the problem, though, slowly making her way through that overcrowded sink.  That whole pie situation made a big mess in the house that they are still trying to clean up.  That whipped cream made everything smell sour, as you might imagine, and messed up towels and the bedding, too.


Yes Holly, you are on camera now and we see your overly-exaggerated expressions.  There is a You Tube video floating around of Holly doing a charitable deed on Thanksgiving, loading up bags of items to take down to the homeless camps.  Now, that's a nice deed and I commend her for that.  But why make a You Tube video documenting the process?  She clearly had someone with her holding the camera, particularly in the car, but I never saw mention of that person.

It's still a good deed, even if you're using it for self-promotion, but I can't give her full credit for it.  She still spoke in that Wired Jaw fashion, but her face seemed different.  Full of Botox, maybe, but just another of the many Faces of Holly.


The watermelon eating NEVER stops.  What a goddamned freak.  I mean, really.


Okay, I'll say it:  I LOVE CHRISTIE.  She's in there getting things done, riding the block for the third week in a row.  I don't want to see her go because she's the only one left in the house that I will stop and watch when I see her on the feeds.

You know, I have two other posts chock full of pictures that I just haven't been able to finish in the last week.  I was having a lot of trouble motivating myself to post, so I decided to make an "I HATE" post with a special section for each house guest, but I decided it was too negative and mean.  So I guess I just unloaded on Holly instead.


Okay, I don't hate Nicole.  She is a sweet girl who had a great makeover this week.  But I forget about her all of the time because she's been like an extra on set, ready to shoot scenes with anyone else on the casting call sheet.

But of course there was a huge alliance at the beginning of the game that excluded her from the action, and she has only been chosen to play in one PoV so far in the game, (UNTIL TODAY) and only then because she was on the block.  And she got some good camera time on the CBS shows this week, so I guess it's her time to shine.

But really, that is Production trying to play catch up with her, since it does look like she will be in the game until the end.  No one expects her to win, but that might be the reason why she could win.  I'd be happy with that.  At least she's genuine, not trying to put on a show for anybody.

And I'll say the same thing for Christie, too.  But everybody else in there gets on my last nerve.


One of the house happenings the Reddit crowd is tracking is how long Holly will go without washing her dirty hair.  She keeps using dry shampoo and apparently even Jackson has been making comments about how she keeps scratching her head.

Christie had some funny commentary a day or so ago about how in the early days of the game the house guests were saying Tommy is really an investment banker or something.  She talked about him walking around doing splits and dancing, saying "oh yeah of course Tommy is a stockbroker" and they all laughed.  And Tommy did a flip flop into a bunch of other dance moves and it was pretty impressive.  He hasn't been working out at all but he can still just bust out the tumbling moves anytime he wants too, apparently.


Cliff said that Tommy is appearing in the Off-Broadway show, "She'll Do", which is a riff on Pretty Woman, of course.  It really was hilarious.

Cliff reported that the wake up songs yesterday were:

*  Ain't No Mountain High Enough
*  Enter Sandman
*  Bennie & The Jets

He enjoyed all of the songs but didn't see the connection or meaning behind them.  Holly is also irritated because one morning Production played one of Jackson's wake up song requests, but not hers.  They're trolling you, Holly.

Maybe the joke is on me and Holly will win Big Brother 21.  I'll just laugh and change the channel, though.  And turn the page, too.


This shirt is interesting.  I think I like it but the tan lines would be brutal.


After the live show and HoH competition, Christie and Nicole started talking about how much they miss their families, and feel the pain in a way that feels unbearable.  They both started bawling and just let go and cried.

Then BB played one of the recorded announcements they have chambered:  BIG BROTHER LOVES YOU.

So that's fun.  Since Production obviously has very little interesting footage for the TV shows, maybe we'll see that on the show.  Who doesn't love crying girls?  It's the latest rage.


The segments that showed the pie throwing were unbearable to me.  Why is that considered funny?  And the whole "clown in the mirror" stuff?  Why is that funny?

I guess this show really caters to a certain segment of the TV market.  Let's just put it that way.  I can't take it with all of the corny sound effects and syrupy music.  If it weren't for the live feeds I don't think I would have watched the TV show much at all.


As the house guests waited around Friday for nominations, Christie did have a mini-meltdown because she knew she would go on the block.  Tommy was grim as he tried to reassure her.  He's had to do this so many times.  Tommy is a big target now, and I'm sure he knows that.

I wish Tommy would be real in the Diary Room, not putting on a show but just breaking it down in an authentic manner.  I know we saw a DR session where he said the Zingbot missed a lot of opportunities to slam Christie, but I think he was reading a script.  He's said that before, that he takes direction from the DR and covers the lines they want him to say.

That should be obvious to you, when you watch the show.  Cliff does it too, with his corny lines about "before the wife", but why is that funny?


Nick didn't do the corny stuff in the DR.  He was who he was, and that really angered certain pockets of the fan base.  And Christie doesn't need her DR session content prepared for her, either.  She has plenty to say and always an interesting way to say it.

So I don't want Christie to go.  I like the people who are real.  Even if that means Real Awful.  I want to see real people who play the game and experience real emotions when they speak privately to us in the DR.


I can't remember why I took this picture.  But they were sitting around waiting for nominations and having an interesting conversation, I think.  But I guess it wasn't interesting enough for me to remember.

I've been very distracted with stuff in my house and also the fall tax season.  There is a tax filing deadline coming up on Sept 15th for the business income tax clients who filed an extension. And those clients are often the hardest to deal with, because they procrastinate and I have to pester them constantly to follow up but it is in their best interest to listen to me.  And they know that.  That's my job.

CPA = Certified Pain in the Ass


Nominations happened.  And it was just as expected.  Jackson said that Jessica is on the block because she's said she would nominate men if she won HoH, or something like that. Jackson has said that he knows Jessica is a bigger threat in the memory and mental competitions than Christie is, so he really wants Jessica to leave the game this week.  She's his real target.


Christie is a changeling who looks different depending on her mood.  Sometimes she wears make up and sometimes she doesn't.  That's pretty real.  I appreciate Christie giving us so much entertainment this season.  Even all of her haters have to agree that she's always interesting.


The house guests commented on the pictures, particularly the color of Christie's hair and Jessica giving "model face" in every photo. No one cried, that I could see, anyway.


***SPOILER ALERT***

The live feeds were down for hours on Saturday, and when they returned just now it was indeed the Hide and Go Veto competition, and the house is a big mess.


I don't think anybody threw food around, or spilled milk on purpose, like we've seen in previous seasons.


Tommy won the PoV, so now he has to show his cards with regard to Christie.  Unless he decides not to use it, which might be interesting.


I tried to take a picture of the living room, but it looked like it usually does, not too messy to me.  Everyone walked around and showed the others where their hiding spot was, but I didn't hear Tommy talk about his.

I'm sure he did, but I didn't hear it.


And this is Jessica's stink face. The "what a mess" face that we saw earlier.  I don't know if she knows she's the target, and I'm not sure what she would do if she did know.

More live feed gold, people.  Yippy yahoo.


***ALSO***

Here's a youthful looking Cliff Hogg, easily the star of that page of his college yearbook.


I'm kind of worried about Julie, ya'll.  This looks like an edibles session gone wrong.


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I have been listening to a lot of Lana Del Rey for the first time in a long time and zoning out to her new CD Norman Fucking Rockwell.  I love this video and just her overall vibe.  It's a long song but you can listen while you read on about my personal life.

If you're into that, of course.  And surprisingly quite a few readers are, so thanks for that.


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So, the master bath renovation is virtually complete, and the last week was certainly interesting. I'm thrilled with the way it all looks, but have been sort of timid about moving back downstairs because, GET THIS, a new project is starting on Wednesday and I'll need to move back upstairs for another week or so and probably won't even be able to walk through the bedroom at all.

Yep, the Italians are coming on Wednesday to put down hardwood floors in the master bedroom.  Right now there is old carpet on the floor, so the hardwoods will be a better flow into the new bathroom based on the advice of the TDH GC, who knows about resale value and works on homes much bigger and more expensive than mine at least half of the time.

This is the new shower.  I don't have the balls to post the before picture, but trust that it was built 20 years ago and came with the house when I bought it.  The niche for shampoo and stuff is on the other side of the wall so it's not visible at first glance (LOVE THAT), and the stripes carry through that area, too.

The TDH GC gave me some homework to do before he comes back on Tuesday or Wednesday.  I am supposed to take a bunch of showers and then let him know how I like the water pressure, temperature, and also let him know if I want the glass shower doors adjusted based on any water landing outside the doors.  I'm also supposed to be evaluating the LED can lighting because he can apparently pull down the cans and adjust the lighting from the "daylight" setting to one of several other choices.  I barely even understand that because while he tells me all of this I'm just staring at him and trying not to spill my beverage because apparently things get tilty with me sometimes.

That door on the right is the closet.


Here is a better look.  He installed new doors that don't take up so much room on the other side.  The door that used to be there was a standard-size door that opened to the right and took up a lot of space when it was open.  I'm getting new shelving from Home Depot for the back wall and right side.  You can't see the shelves and hanging bars on the left, but they're there.

The TDH GC stood in the same spot from this camera angle last week and watched me march in and open the doors.  He noticed that I had to reach around with my left hand to feel for the light switch, so he came back the next day to install a motion sensor so I don't have to fumble for the switch at all.  Now I just walk in there and the LED lights turn on, and turn off about 15 seconds after I leave the room.

He seems to really love this part of the project, and watches closely to see if he's making his clients happy and if he can improve on anything.  I hung out in the room with them a few times last week watching them work and we had a lot of fun telling stories and talking crap about all the people that we think are idiots.  (Apparently when I said someone at F________ E_______was "fucking stupid but please excuse my French" that apparently broke down a wall with the TDH GC because I guess he got a peek behind the Corporate manners and he liked it.)

The floors in the bath (but not the closet) are heated, and that is the temperature control you see on the right there, above the towel rack.  And yes that is a Lacoste towel, but please don't judge.  I'm not a label person but I love a well-made bath towel.  It's very soft and they did a great job with the facing (?) on the borders.


I wanted to show the full view of the wall on the left, but since the wall is covered with mirrors I couldn't find a way to keep myself out of it.  But there is another vanity and sink just like this one on the other side of the makeup table.  There used to be a whirlpool tub in that blank space below that crazy lighting piece but I never liked it so we got rid of it and made the shower another foot bigger.  There is a velvet chair on order that will match my tuffet (see previous post) that will go in that space.

The Italians who are doing the hardwoods in the bedroom aren't connected with the TDH GC, so I can tell he feels a bit territorial about that process, asking me questions as if The Italians are idiots who haven't already done the floors and stairs of at least six of my neighbors. He asked me if the finish was going to match the rest of the wood floors downstairs and I said "yes".  (DUH.  OF COURSE.)  And he told me what their schedule should be, and how long it should take them.  He's alpha-ing them already and I love it.

The new barn door that will lead into the bathroom is going to wait until the bedroom floors are done, so that means at least two more days of "work" with the TDH GC.  He's going to drop off the door on Tuesday or Wednesday and put it in my garage (I'm guessing Wednesday since he knows The Italians will be here that day. LOL.) and then I'll just let him know when I'm ready for the door to be installed.


So, I was thinking we'd maybe make out one day and have a rather torrid affair after construction was over.  But there may be a plot twist. On Wednesday he let me know he'd be coming back on Thursday alone to wrap up some things and pick up tools that have been in my garage for months now.

It felt different.  He was nervous, I think.  I hung out with him most of the time he was here, and he started telling me about how he loves to be outdoors and the set up in his backyard, with those heaters you see on bar patios during the winter.  Even TV outdoors, too, so that's interesting.  Then he told me about his parents and what their life is like in his home country in Europe and how he feels about visiting them and how he sits on their city balcony.  And also some of his father's health problems and some small conflicts they have now and how he knows his father is right.

Then when we were wrapping up, it was so awkward because we were just standing at the edge of the foyer leaning on the bar in the kitchen and he said one of his guys said yesterday that he wished all of their clients were like me, because I guess I didn't give them drama and headaches like many other clients and let's face it, I'm nice to them and I'm cute.  Then he said he wanted to send the guy who referred me to him a bottle of vodka or something to thank him for bringing me into his life while we're just standing there locking eyes.  I told him the whole story of the referral, with the parts he didn't know.  He only knew Part #3.

Basically, as follows:

1.  I have a client I met out walking my dog years ago (John) who is now a friend who comes over to do handyman type stuff for me on the weekends when he's not golfing.  I know John renovated his bathroom a few years ago so in February when he dropped off his tax stuff I asked him for the contractor's name.  John started asking me questions about the project, like what type of renovation and how much work and didn't I know that would be expensive, and so forth. I never got the name from him.

2.  In April my front door suddenly stopped opening and thank god I could get out of the house through the garage.  John came over to help me and ended up having to take the front door off the hinges and install another handle and lock, etc.  I asked John AGAIN for the contractor referral  and he asked me the same fatherly questions about what I wanted and how I should go about it and he'd give me the name later and so on.  I never got the name from John and was finally like WHATEVER I guess this guy's name is a FUCKING SECRET or something.

(Then I went down the road with two different contractors that my gut told me weren't the right people to work with so I sort of put the project on the back burner mentally until I came up with another option.)

3.  When the Elton John movie came out (Rocket Man) I spontaneously decided I wanted to see it on opening weekend.  So on Sunday I pulled up the website of our nearby theater where you sit in an incredibly comfortable seat and just press a button on your TV tray and a server appears to take your cocktail and food order, like magic.  There was a showing beginning in the next hour, with only three seats left.  So I randomly picked one of those seats and scrambled around getting ready to go.  I got to my seat when the previews were showing, so I was eyeballing my menu looking for options I could eat and I heard someone whispering to me saying, "is that you?" and I looked to my left and it was John and John's wife sitting in the seat right next to me.  So we watched the movie and when it was over we chatted and I asked him ONE MORE TIME for the GOD DAMNED NAME  (but I didn't say it like that, of course)  and he once again said he'd get it to me.  But by the time I got home he emailed me the TDH GC's name and number.  And one week later I called and left a message.  And then one day after that the TDH GC called me and we made an appointment to meet. I think it was June 20th.

While I was telling him all of this I thought damn I've been talking a long time and he was leaning over and I was trying to finish a sentence about how I knew it was a strong referral and when I met him I just knew he was the right guy because I felt it and there was a moment when he nodded and he had to feel the crackle of energy between us.  He's a big hugger, which I love, and there were at least four hugs but I don't remember why or when the first two started.  But on the first (or second?) I got on my tippy toes and my right cheek was right there on his right cheek and I was shocked when the hug ended and I could still feel the way his face felt against mine.  And then like a dumbass I think I put a hand on my face where his cheek was, right there in front of him.

The third hug was a strong squeeze on both sides, and I said "________ you're a sweetheart" and then he was walking towards the door saying he tries really hard to be a sweetheart and when his hand was on the front door he turned and said he almost forgot and came back for hug #4 and said he needed his check.  So I pulled it out of my pocket and gave it to him. I tried to give it to him the day before, but he didn't want it.

And then he left my house, and left town on Friday for a fishing trip.  That's his thing.  Fishing.  I know my vegan friends would hate that, but as a hobby I sort of like it.  He's not sitting at home playing video games or playing golf all day and there are no whores out on the lake, or in the boat.  That I know of, anyway.

Tuesday, August 20, 2019

If She Only Could, She'd Make a Deal With God. #BB21


Things were getting really boring in the house.  I went a day or so without even thinking about Big Brother.  It seems unreal that there is still way over a month until the season is over, but it feels like it's been years since the season premiere.  Maybe some of these house guests would have been more engaging players if they were blended in to a different season.  Maybe they would have tried harder harder, or just tried to keep information to themselves.

I don't want any of them to win.  Nope.  None of them.

I missed all of the excitement last night, the excitement that probably spelled doom for the Production team, and caused the live feeds to abruptly shut down, and for the house guests to likely be scolded and reminded that the penalties for talking about it would be harsh and swift.  But really, what could Production do to them at this point?  The production company still has over a month's worth of TV programming to deliver to the network.  I can't imagine what it feels like trudging through the parking lot to go to work each day, knowing you have to immerse yourself in this in order to pay your bills.

OK. Here's The Deal:  Someone apparently put together a plan to fly a drone over the backyard and deliver a recorded message about Tommy and Christie.  This person is taking credit for the idea, and may or may not be an actual friend of Kathryn.  But the indignation doesn't ring true for me because Kathryn knew Holly beforehand, too, and has gloated about fooling Production several times on the live feeds.  It's not like Kathryn is some innocent lamb in this scenario.



And to further expound on the Less-Than-Innocent-Kathryn, during the preseason, Brent from RHAP was sort of frantic about spilling all sorts of information about the casting decisions.  I wasn't sure I believed all of it, but I knew that Brent believed all of it.  I wondered if someone was feeding him false information in the way that some Big Brother "fans" like to grab as much preseason attention as they can, while they can.

But much of it has turned out to be true.  Or mostly true.  That doesn't mean it was the right thing to do, but it was done, and now we're going to talk about it.  Basically, Brent said that he heard that Kathryn and/or people connected to her exposed this BB-potential contestant's chatter and got them taken off the cast.  We don't really KNOW that this girl exposed her own casting info, or if she was actually in serious contention to receive a key.  Or what any other casting decisions might have been at that time, because it does seem questionable that this Jenna Jackson girl would be cast alongside Kathryn, because their backgrounds obviously intersect and they seem like the same sort of casting archetype.  It's hard to know who would get the credit for this casting change, even if it did happen.

PLUS:  What is the evidence that casting WOULD care about this, since they obviously DIDN'T care about all of the other casting issues?  Why would one situation be a problem while the others weren't?


 

I wasn't watching the live feeds, but apparently Nicole was laying in the hammock, and Cliff, Tommy and Jackson were also in the backyard when the drone flew over.  The house guests aren't allowed to talk about the incident, and we're not allowed to listen to them not talk about it.  This is consistent with prior seasons, where we can only speculate about what was said and who heard it.  And the house guests are often so startled by the situation that they don't always correctly hear and absorb the information as the sender intended.

This tweeter implies that Jackson wasn't in the backyard at the time, but as we'll see shortly, the person responsible for this claims he was indeed out there, because what we see on the live feeds is on a short time delay.  I believe that, because all broadcast TV is on a time delay, I think.

This Reddit post mentions the video (audio only, really) clip that is floating around today.  I tweeted that out earlier today so if you can find that, you can listen for yourself.  It's eerie and if any of the house guests did hear it, there is no mistaking Christie's voice in the Diary Room, discussing the pros and cons of having Tommy in the house with her.

Every BB fan commenting has a different story about who was back there, and what they heard.  If Cliff can tell us after the season ends, I'm sure he will tell us.  If only Cliff and Tommy know about it, I'm sure Cliff realizes the blackmail potential there, using the knowledge to make sure Tommy keeps Cliff in the game.  Because I'm sure Cliff knows Tommy is coming for him.  That's been Tommy's plan for a long time.

In this video, Holly asks Jackson if he heard what was said and Jackson makes some sounds in response.  And let's chat for a moment about Holly's ridiculous Dorothy hairstyle.  The Sunday night show was very shady towards Holly because there were several tight, quick camera shots of Holly flipping and flopping her hair around, making sure it was arranged just so.  That's her story line.  Flipping her way-too-long extensions around in her Frontierland scenes with Jackson, setting up her own camera shots.  I watched Holly complain at least a month ago to Kathryn that all of her DR sessions involved "questions about some dude", rather than her game play, but I guess she wasn't that upset about it.  Not enough to want to change anything.


This person started posting on JokersUpdate (the Discussion section) last night to claim their role in the caper.  I also saw a series of posts on Reddit under another name (of course) that dated back several weeks ago, claiming they were cooking up a scheme and looking for LA-based fans who would be willing to help.

On the short clip I tweeted out, we didn't hear the entire message.  But what business did Christie and Tommy own together?  Was it a lemonade stand in grade school or something?  Because I know nothing about that situation.  It was definitely a DJ-type voice though.


Here are more one-line posts from this same "guy".  Whoever it is, their name is definitely not "Roger Graimes".  Just saying.  What "monitor" are they referring to though?  If they are implying they saw Jackson on the live feeds, that would not have been the case, since the fans watching at home couldn't see Jackson yet on the live feeds, assuming the time delay claim is accurate.


And this "Roger Graimes" was getting all cranky with the Jokers posters.

So, I definitely believe that some information was transmitted to the house guests in the backyard.  And I definitely believe Production tried to nip it in the bud by making everyone shut up and go to sleep.  Or to just get in bed, with the appearance of sleep.  Production's main concern is continuing to deliver the TV episodes, with content that is believable by the viewing public.  People like us, chatting about this don't factor into the equation.


After the PoV ceremony yesterday, Christie was relatively calm, seeming to accept that she would indeed be sitting on the block for the live show and probably headed to the Jury to join her friend Jack and frenemy Kathryn.

And to expand what I told you earlier, about the claims that Kathryn somehow ensured that Jenna Jackson got cut from this cast, Brent from RHAP also claimed that Christie was inserted into the action to fill Jenna's empty spot.  I don't know if that is true, but I did hear with my own ears Christie whisper to someone that she was an alternate this season.  It might have been on the live feeds, or one of the live feed snippets featured on the Big Brother Gossip podcast, but I think she was talking to Tommy at the time, and I definitely heard her say it.  Maybe that was part of the reason Christie kept saying that this was all meant to be for her, some sort of miracle.  It was God's plan for Christie to play and win this game.


Christie was very fun to watch this summer, with all of the self-absorbed chatter, bossy conduct, and of course the tears.   I am very forgiving of the house guests if I find them genuine and entertaining, and Christie was both.  She seems to believe every word she says, which is amazing.

If Christie knows her situation with Tommy has blown up, maybe she should try to use this in her eviction speech, saying everybody knows that both she and Tommy will go on the block every week until one or both of them have been evicted, and that nobody on the Jury would award either one of them the Big Money due to the advantage they have.

Why not try it?  What has Christie got to lose?  Because otherwise, she's already lost.


The Sunday night episode introduced Analyse the Idiot to the CBS audience.  I did like the footage of her in her chicken costume, because I've already told you her personality improved at least 75% since she was forced to wear that and cook all of those egg dishes.

I liked the footage of her working the cameras in the dining room, too, clucking at them and standing up to get closer.  I'm sure Production was thankful that Sys is the one who won that punishment, because at least it was a way to get a few minutes of continuous usable footage of her without having to bleep her constant use of the word "fucking" every other third word.  And it is "literally" every second word, of course.  Chicken language is much easier to edit, with less bleeping.  Bok bok.

I can't get on board with these pants, though.  They look like something you'd wear to the pool party in Las Vegas, competing for attention in a sea of bare skin.


What a mess.  What a wreck.

But he has a decent chance to get to the end of this thing.  If we ever have a double eviction (next week, maybe?) then he'll be a target.  But Nick likes to compete, and if he can win the HoH or PoV then I think he can slide right through to the finale.


At some point, Nick obviously started taking pointers about eating cucumbers from Jackson.  I do not endorse this method of cucumber-eating.


This was Jackson after the nomination ceremony, dutifully putting the key box back in place.  This was actually a good haircut for Jackson, but I'm not sure who was handling the clippers.  Jessica offered to give the guys haircuts for the first live show, but I don't think that went well.  Tommy had to do a lot of fixing afterwards.


Christie claims she knew she was Jackson's target, but Analyse was shocked to learn she would sit on the block with Christie.  She spoke with Jackson earlier and felt good about the week because he assured her she was not the target.


I thought Christie took it pretty well, considering how she acted the week that Nick was the HoH and she freaked out about how she thought he was going on the block, due to the way he greeted her that morning and how he likes brussell sprouts and all.

Remember the early weeks of the game when Analyse was Holly's shadow, following her around all day?  Well, I guess that stopped when Holly started hanging out with Jackson all of the time.


Holly tries to spend time with the group throughout the day, if only for a few minutes to sort of take the temperature of the room.  And she swore to Analyse and Christie that she didn't know what the nominations were going to be.

Tommy must be feeling good about this, knowing that Christie is the target and that once she's gone, he'll have one solid vote to win on the Jury, and his daily stress managing Christie will be over.


And Jackson later told Holly that he had some work to do with Sys, because he didn't give her any warning that that she would be on the block.  Jackson realized they had five days before the live show, and that they would have time to spend outdoors, where it's much easier to chat without being overheard.

Jackson: I don't think there is any need to rush those conversations.


This is how Holly chooses to "relax" in the kitchen area in front of the entire cast.  We know you've staked your claim on him Holly, there is no need to drape yourself all over him like this.

It seems like months ago that Jackson wanted to break up with Holly because she refused to keep having sex on the live feeds.  But it was only two weeks ago and the problem is apparently not an issue for Holly now.  They even engaged in obvious carnal activities in the downstairs bedroom while Christie and Sys were talking in the bed next to them.  Yep, that happened.

If Production has the guts, they should make a montage out of that situation.  We've seen Jackson eating and saying the same stupid cliches over and over, but why don't they show Holly's best moments?


I know everyone likes to talk about Christie's eating, so I thought this was a golden opportunity to preserve these moments for eternity.  Or as long as the internet exists.


It's a chewing problem, for sure, but also a biting issue as well.  Perhaps it's also the way she holds her fork.  Maybe that is the source of the problem.

I used to work with a Chinese girl and she would often take me to the best, most authentic places to eat lunch.  I was pretty proud of the way I could use chopsticks but this girl told me if I went to her home and held my chopsticks like that in front of her family, her mother would be horrified.  So maybe I was Being a Christie with the chopsticks, assuming any position was a good position when eating utensils are concerned.  Because clearly, it isn't.  That same girl taught me to say some very filthy phrases in Mandarin, but unfortunately I forgot that important information.


I mean, there's got to be a better way, right?  A more delicate solution?

I think we can all agree Christie isn't one to put on a lot of airs and graces.  The other day she said her friends are going to bring a whole suitcase full of marijuana over to her house when the season is over.  That sounds fun to me.


Nick told Anaylse that he was sad she was on the block, but reassured her she would be safe.  He also swore he'd take her off the block if she picked him and he won PoV.  Analyse was pretty sure that she would be safe, though, so she wanted whoever won to save Christie instead of her.  But of course that didn't happen.


Jackson won the PoV, of course, and let his nominations ride.  As we knew he would, no matter what sort of chatter he entertained during that long Saturday night to Monday morning stretch between the end of the PoV competition and the PoV ceremony.

Sure, Christie tried, she tried to make a case to get herself off the block, but in the end she knows she's the target.  She tried to point the gun at Nick, but Jackson already promised Nick he's safe this week.  And Nick and Jackson both promised each other that they wouldn't target the other if next week is the Double Eviction.  Both guys said they want to compete against the best for the title.


Someone needs to take Jessica out of this game.  She's a wild card who can't be trusted as far as an alliance goes or using good judgement with regard to maintaining confidential information.  I'm sure Production is alarmed at the thought of Jessica winning this thing.  She's a nice girl but has horrible instincts where this game is concerned.


Nick knows Jessica talks crap about him all of the time.  He's aware of that and said he'd target her if he could.  But that seems like a wasted HoH, doesn't it?

Cliff Hogg needs to go. That's what I think.  He's proven himself and had a productive summer in the house.  He did enough to feel good about everything so he can just take his stuffed owl and go.  And he will surely be a vocal part of the Big Brother community for as long as he'd like to be after this season is over.


Let's not forget about the food situation.  Jackson still has plenty of watermelon to eat in there, that's for sure.  I find watermelon to be so variable, though.  As Jerry Seinfeld says, "fruit is a gamble, you know that going in".

I bought a seedless watermelon this week and tried to use Jackson's slicing techniques.  I ended up with a lake of watermelon juice all over my cutting board and kitchen countertops.  And the chopped up fruit looks pretty, but it wasn't as sweet as it was supposed to be.

But the fruit out there in California is always the best.  They get to eat it when it's nice and fresh, before it takes the long hot ride across the country to get to places like Atlanta.  I can't imagine eating a whole watermelon by myself though, even in a week.  I'm going to try and blend it up in a spinach smoothie tomorrow and see how that goes.


This is the PoV costume that Holly wore to play.  The theme of the competition was some sort of beach or pool theme, and I think once again they had to stack up some things, maybe with a hard puzzle.  Nick and Jackson later said that it was Christie's competition to win, so who knows what that means.

After Jackson won, some of the cast blew off steam playing around.  Tommy picked up Nicole and ran like the beginning of Baywatch and somehow Holly got involved, too.  Christie was very upset about this, apparently, because her fate was sealed but people were smiling and having fun.  I'm sure she was dramatic and all, but I could understand being upset about people being insensitive about her plight.


Holly took the watermelon juice and mixed it with juice from a jar of jalapenos to make some sort of a spicy mocktail.  She went into the bedroom to ask Analyse and Christie if they wanted to try it but both said "no thank you".  Then Sys RAILED on Holly after she left the room, thinking Holly was being insensitive to them, saying she hated Holly's voice and the way she walked, too.

Today Holly told Jackson that she thinks one reason why Analyse started disliking her is because of the difference in the two couples' relationships.

Holly:  Her relationship with Jack was obviously just physical.  And our relationship....we connected on several different points and I think she wishes her relationship was like that.


Nick made a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and ate it in his usual glum fashion.


Cliff enjoyed cereal and some of the only entertaining reading material they are allowed to have in the house.


I think this is a sandwich Cliff is laying waste to here.  He usually eats breakfast sandwiches but just talked to the cameras about wanting a ham and cheese sandwich but he was too comfortable under his Pendleton blanket in the Boat Room to want to get up and make it.


Weeks ago they house guests named the fish after themselves, based on their own personality traits and the way the fish conduct themselves in the tank.

Yesterday they noticed "Nicole" was floating at the top, obviously dead.  They had some sort of lockdown earlier today and they think it was to allow someone to come in and remove "Nicole" from the tank.  Tommy also thinks the tank looks cleaner, so maybe they cleaned it up, too.


Then they fed the fish and watched in horror as "Holly" only got a small bit of food.  "Holly" is always fighting for a few scraps of food and Holly thinks that it's not enough for "Holly" to only have a small bite of food every other day or so.

Nick noted that "Jack" was over on the side, and "don't care about nothing".  And "Jackson" always eats everything in there.  They called out to Production, saying they need more food for the fish.  What they have isn't enough.  But that's the way life is.  Not everyone gets what they need handed to them.  Sometimes you have to fight for it. It's the law of natural selection.


Christie has started a little war against Nick, based on her view that he is throwing comps to allow both sides to target each other while he keeps skating by every week. She told Nick specifically that she is going to blow up his game, but I'm not sure why she felt the need to tell him that.  

Because Nick is getting out in front of the problem, talking openly about things Christie has said to him throughout the season.  He had a long conversation with Nicole about it.  Nicole, who hasn't done one damn thing all season.  Except trust the wrong people. Over and over.


Analyse came upstairs to ask openly if Christie is still the target, and how much she needs to campaign.  Nick ended up telling her about how Christie wanted to target Jack and Jackson, and you could see Sys started to get a little heated about it, wanting to know exactly which week this all happened.

(It started during Christie's HoH reign, the very first cycle of the game.  Remember when she wanted to put Jack on the block after the PoV?)

Nick:  She said she didn't want to go to the final six with the showmances.  She's always said that, too.

Sys:  Yeah, that makes sense.  But I didn't think she was targeting Jack.


A few minutes ago Nicole was talking to Nick about how she was dreading having to sit through all of the campaigning, and now here she is, sitting with Christie who says no one wants to sit with her, and it's like she is contagious.  She knows she's the target and it just isn't fair.


Christie:  I love this game so much and I wanted to come in here and play my ass off.  But now I'm on the block and I'm the target and no one wants to talk to me about it.  It's just obvious I'm the target.

Nicole:  I'm sorry Christie.


Christie said she told Nick that she's going to be campaigning against him the whole time.  She's going to let people know what he's up to in there, throwing comps so everybody else can go against each other.

(That sounds like a good plan to me.  Nick lost his two allies weeks ago and was generally assumed to be a sure target for eviction before Jury.  So even if he's making personal mistakes left and right he's still doing something right in the game.)


The whole cast ended up gathering in the living room to listen to the conversation.  Sys wanted to be there, because she's on the block too, and Nick wanted to be there, to monitor what Christie has to say about him.  And Tommy had to put himself in the middle of everything, of course, and Cliff wanted to keep tabs on everything, too.

They want Big Brother to show them a movie on the TV screen today, or even a stand up comedy special.  Jackson would even take a silent Disney cartoon at this point, he says.

Tommy:  THEY OWE US A MOVIE.  THEY OWE US.


***ALSO***

Kaycee continues to be kind to fans everywhere she goes.  I guess the bun is unmistakable.



***ABOUT THE POST TITLE***

The other day, I heard this song playing in LA Fitness, over my own music blaring in my earbuds.  I took it as a sign, because this used to be one of my big songs. I was very, very shy growing up and learned to play one of two songs in my head when I had to walk into a crowded room or a situation where I felt intimidated, usually by boys.  It just gave me courage somehow and I'm pretty sure my posture was different because I could feel people looking at me and I suddenly understood they were admiring me, not being critical.

The version in my head was the original Kate Bush song, of course, but this cover is pretty good.  It's very Kate-like, actually.  I love the drum beat.  I can feel it in my throat when I turn the music up really loud.  It's a song to strut to, definitely.


I've come a long, long way since those days of being so shy.  I'm still shy, but only in certain situations.  But I do recommend picking songs that make you feel powerful and playing them in your head when you  need to.  It takes your mind off of being self-conscious and creates a little swagger.  I did it with my imagination, not earbuds and a smartphone, but you do you, people.

(The other song I played in my head was Rhiannon by Fleetwood Mac.)

***QUESTION***

Supposedly the master bath construction was to be finished this week, but now maybe next week.  We're trying to put all the pieces together but it's a challenge getting everything we need.  For example the accent light was installed yesterday but the special bulbs it came with had two out of four broken inside the glass tubes.  So they look good, but they don't work.  And some of the shower fixtures can't be installed because the people at F_______  E______ ordered the wrong plumbing pieces.

The TDH GC came over today to make an appearance and to measure for the three mirrors over the sinks and makeup table.  I was talking smack about the customer service at F________  E_______  and said the girl I spoke with  "was fucking stupid but I'm used to talking to people who aren't as smart as I am" and then he said "_______, you really are a jewel. I have to tell you that."

That's good, right?

I replayed what he said in my head while he was going on about how many inches the beveled mirror would be from the wall and when I realized he was asking for my approval I told him I wasn't listening to him and we both started laughing.  It's hopeless but it's fun.