Thursday, August 18, 2011

Dani's HOH Blog

Here it is, word-for-word.  As you can tell, I think Dani is getting irritated by Kalia.  If you watched the live feeds early Wednesday morning (from 12:00 am to about 1:30 Big Brother time), you know what I mean.

Second time's a charm.

Wow. Where do I begin?? This HAS to be the season of the worst games moves. EVER! From trying to backdoor Jeff prematurely, to Lawon asking to be evicted, to keeping Rachel in the house. HOLY CANNOLI! One of the stupidest moves in this game is to evict one of your own allies… Why would anyone do that? Lawon was a back up plan that went very wrong. Last week I finally saw the people I can trust and the people who I cannot, plain as day. Maybe I'm a pessimist, but I try and think logically through worst case scenario… if it's the worst thing that can possibly happen, it probably will. This isn't my first rodeo and I know how this game works. I'm not going to lie, it was really hard to come to grips with the fact that the last two HOHs were a complete waste. It wasn't easy to accomplish what we had, and it all was erased. This week, … this week was a week for me to clean up the mess that was left from last week. Hey, I got the guy out once before, why can't I do it again?

HOLD ON… I just want to say… How the heck did Brendon get voted back into this house?? (; I was REALLY REALLY hoping Dominic was going to get the chance to come back in the house. It would have been great to have a close ally and a close friend back in the game. I miss his guts. In fact, I would have traded almost anyone to get Keith, Cassi, and Dominic back in this house. WE'RE EVICTING ALL THE FUN PEOPLE! No, really.. I apologize if this cast is uber boring we sleep A LOT. Some more than others.

We are getting closer and closer to the end of the game. It's crazy because it feels like I walked through the door yesterday, but at the same time it feels like we have been here forever. It's time for me to step up and make sure that I have security blankets everywhere! At this point in the game, I'm pretty much back to where I was in the beginning of the season.. having deals of some sort with, well, everyone. This could be a smart move, and this could also be to my own demise. In this house, everyone is scared of other people. Too scared to put someone up in case they come off the block, too scared to vote a certain way exc. The only thing I'm scared of in this game is… myself. I HAVE to make sure to play my cards wisely and not outplay myself. I need to calculate each and every move I'm going to make and have more than one back up plan in case things start going in another direction. I mean I'm evicting Rachel's finance TWICE and after he leaves, the only person she really trusts is me.. How does that even happen?

I'm definitely starting to get home sick. I miss being around people that actually care about me and having conversations that aren't big brother strategy. As cheesy as it sounds, it was so heart warming to see pictures of my roomies and bestie. Just hearing in a small letter about things that are going on outside of this house makes you feel great. I cannot wait to see everyone on the outside and catch up. On the other hand, the best part of winning HOH this week is securing that I will be spending another birthday in the Big Brother house. Birthdays get really lonely in here, but right now, there is not one other place I'd rather be.

I can't say it enough, but I truly hope I'm making all my friends, family, and big brother fans proud. Even for those of you that hate me and hope desperately every week that I get evicted, I hope in some way or another you feel as though I'm playing a good game. Apparently I do well with my back up against the wall because I feel like I'm fighting for my life each and every week in this game. Here's the thing with Kalia, I love her dearly, but she thinks she is just as big of a target as I am… that is B. FALSE. People are scared of me in this game, and people want me gone sooner than later. I need to branch out there and make other deals and back up plans to ensure that I stay in this house as long as possible. Being back in this house for a second time is still surreal to me and second place is not an option. NO REGRETS ONLY CHOICES!


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